soooo i love my boyfriend john i love him to death and i would do anything for him hes the best thing thats ever happened to me but he resently told me he has a 2 week old baby.....man did that make me cry,,,, ive never cried that much in my entire life.....i couldnt sleep all night and the next day i couldnt eat or drink or anything i was extremely depressed i didnt know what to do every one kept telling me that he was as good as gone and i think thats what hurt me the most.....i didnt know what to do...i truely thought he was going to leave me....when we finally started talking about everything i found out that she lives in dallas and hes not 100 percent positive that its his i guess what bugs me about that is that he has a kid with someone else and hes always talking about being with me forever and well if he has a baby it could change how he feels about me....i really dont want to lose him...hes the best thing thats ever happened to me and ive already lost so many friends over him....i love him alot.... and nothing can change that i just hope he feels the same....

&> maria<3